Fulfilment
It is 10PM
I’m just in through the door
I was up this morning
At a quarter past four
My head is buzzing
My body feels weak
I’m finding it a chore
Even just to speak
I sit for a moment
To ease my aching feet
and pick at some chocolate-
a well-earned treat!
Then I shuffle of to the shower
Just because,
I know won’t I want to
If I just as much as pause
I spend half an hour
To wind down from the stress
I try to rid myself quickly
of the day’s distress
Off to bed I head
Snuggling in to keep warm
and under the covers I reflect on the day
Something I do as part of my norm
I think about the people I’ve met
and knowledge I have obtained
I start to see how little I know
and how much I need retained
I think about the man
Though, while nearing death
Trusts my superiors completely
to renew that breath
I think about the lady
Who in her silent suffering
Speaks to me so clearly
Of the comfort I should bring
I think of all the people
Whom in my hands, their lives- entrust
and know my reason for diligence
Why I try, and why I must
I’m reminded of my will
My sole intent
To make a difference in this world
No matter the extent
I’m reminded of my passion
Why I do what I do
I must never forget
This fervour so true
My heart then gets excited
To run tomorrows course
For I know I’ll find strength
because I know the source
The purpose is enough
To help me pull through
On days that are rough
and on days I feel blue
I know the world wonders
How contented can I be?
With 15 hours of work
and no time for me
There are many nights
As I head off to sleep
My body feels so torn apart
So tired, I would weep
There are days when I’m discouraged
And feel like giving in
But I push myself on- forward
With strength from Him, within
For I know I’m not alone
I know I have a guide
I know He holds tomorrow
And is always by my side
I know He works the miracles
And it isn’t by my skill
I only need to surrender
As a medium, to His will
So when the going gets tough
When I fear the most
I remind myself of the promise
That in Him I can boast
Which is why I get by daily
Knowing my strife is not futile
As long as I give my very best
I’ll see it’s all worth my while
So I drift off to sleep
With a sense of purpose inside
The peace from responding to a calling
Leaves me satisfied.
This pretty much explains why I haven’t blogged. Neurosurgery will be over SOON enough 
